Jan 172017
 

cookie-dough-cover-pagePart Six – Cookie Dough in the Dark

To read part one click- My Sugar Addiction, Part Two Sugar Addiction & Self-Punishment, Part Three Could This be part of the Answer, Part Four A Seed of Transformation, Part Five Back to Haunt Me 

 

Addiction Uncovered

 

In February of 2007, I read the “12 Steps Program” for Alcoholics and a shiver ran through me. I am addicted to sugar. Sugar is a drug. I needed to surrender. I needed to feel what I had to feel.

 

Easier said than done. But all this information that I was opening myself up to led me to healing myself day after day – albeit it’s been a long journey.

 

In August of 2007 I read an article by Dr. Mercola titled Is Sugar More Addictive than Cocaine?[1] Its findings reported that an astonishing 94% of rats who were allowed to choose between sugar water and cocaine, chose sugar.

 

I was relieved to know that I wasn’t crazy. This was a powerful addiction that I was trying to control and I was fighting against reward signals that were firing in my brain.

 

I started to connect the dots. I started to notice that when I started eating sugar I couldn’t stop. I started to notice that I would have to eat more sugar to reach that state of euphoria and peace I was looking for. I started to notice that I may have been high from the sugar, but peace was nowhere to be found – only more feelings of weakness and self-hatred and how could I be so stupid, and why can’t I control this?

 

When I was in my mid 30’s (yes, hard to believe this was still an issue) I remember that my kids (preschooler ages) and I were making gingerbread houses and they weren’t putting the smarties in a colour pattern that I deemed was pleasing to the eye and I was getting frustrated by this (who’s the child?). In moments like this I would need to calm myself down. I would go to the pantry and eat whatever I saw to calm me down and numb the pain. And I would keep eating until the emotion I was trying to eliminate became one of anger at myself for losing control. Eventually, I broke down this habit into parts and came up with a plan. I started to really connect that when I felt a certain way I would respond a certain way. Over the course of time and with intention, I would go into the pantry and just put my hand on the item and breathe. It wasn’t about denying myself food; it was about learning to deal with the situation at hand. Food will not fix anything but hunger. Sometimes, I would relapse and give in and feel as if I became a child and not want to resist temptation. I want what I want and I want it now! I deserve this. It seems crazy how easy it is to fall back sometimes, but it’s never all the way back to the beginning, so I keep reminding myself of that.

 

Empowerment not Punishment

 

I had let food, or shall I say – the addiction to empty carbs – take my power away. It crippled me. It consumed me. It seemed that it was the only thing that comforted me. I turned to food for everything – boredom, frustration, happiness, etc. I would eat when no one could see me. Eat isn’t even the right word. I would shove food in my face. More! More! Just numb the pain. Who was I kidding? It was self-punishment. I was in denial to feel what I was feeling. I was still closed off and not ready for the next step. I never felt good after a binge. In fact, I always felt worse.

 

The question is this: Why was I punishing myself? I decided to change my focus. Instead of focusing on why I was punishing myself, I decided to start to empower myself. I educated myself about nutrients, cells and the power of balancing my body, mind and spirit. I read every book I could find on disease prevention, the brain and nutrition. I realized that I could pour as much energy into sabotaging myself as I could at re-inventing myself. I decided to choose the latter.

 

So now my suitcase was wide open and I was ready and willing to deal with the contents.

 

Stay tuned for next Tuesday– Can you Relate?

 

Tanya Morrison has been in the Health/Wellness and Fitness Field for over two decades and has coached and trained many clients during this time. She is a certified Personal Trainer, Precision Nutrition Coach, Pilates/Aerobics/Yoga Instructor and more. She is the creator of the Busy Mama Reboot 28 day program, 10 Day Body Reset Detox, 30 Days to a New You, Holistic Weight Management System and many more on-line programs. To find out more about these life changing programs check out the testimonials and information at www.moveyourbody.ca

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[1] Mercola, Dr. Joseph. “Is Sugar More Addictive Than Cocaine?” mercola.com.

http://articles.mercola.com/sites/articles/archive/2007/08/23/is-sugar-more-addictive-than-cocaine.aspx (accessed August 23, 2007).

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